06.25.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 9:05 pm by LadyHawk
Well last Thursday was quite eventful… Our daughter Ally called us and wanted us to come and pick her up because she was having a time with her stepfather. Well on the way down there I (Jamie) started passing out and was extremely nautious. So we ended up having to make a little detour before to go get our daughter. We went to E-town hospital. Well to make a long story short my potassium was low and I was dehydrated. Poor Sponge was so upset and worried about me. I felt sorry for him but knew everything was going to be okay. He wasn’t so sure though, thankfully all is good and I’m back up to power now. So I had to keep my fluids up and drink plenty of gatorade. After I was discharged it was back on the road again to go get our daughter. We didn’t get on the road until about 7ish. Leaving us run behind and down there real late. Poor Sponge had not had hardly any rest so we were quite drained when we got down there to the kids.
We had the kids stay with us in a hotel it was great to be with them. Just the circumstances for it wasn’t very pleasant. Its wonderful to have Ally with us every day though. Look forward to moving in the new home and being with both our children. We both miss Alex very much.
We got news today that our well is done. We have to get our electric hooked up so they can make sure everything is working alright. Then we just have to wait for state to recheck everything and hopefully we will be moved in by the second week in July. Its been a long process but once we get in the house and everything it will be well worth it. Can’t wait to get moved in and settled. Then once we get our internet hooked back up and everything we can start blogging daily again.
Take care,
Lady Hawk
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06.07.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 12:28 am by LadyHawk
Sounds crazy I know… to have all those mixed emotions. That is how I feel right now. I know Sponge feels the same way at the moment. As you all know we have alot going on right now with the state dragging their feet on everything. Its all getting quite frustrating for the both of us. We are sitting and waiting for them to get everything straghtened out so that we can move closer to our babies. We both miss our children very much. I just want to get down there and get a job and be mommy. I miss our children very much. Alex is such a wonderful little boy and I can not wait to be down there with him. He loves me very much and I adore that little boy. I want to be there with Ally and just be her friend again. As well as mommy… that little girl means alot to me as well. I love her and feel as if we could be great friends as well as have a great mother daughter relationship. I hope she knows exactly how much she means to me as well. I just try to give her space, because I know what its like to be a teenager Ive been there. I hate feeling stuck and not having a dang thing that I can do about it. All we can do for the most part is sit and wait for the state to get things finished up for us to move in our home. In the meantime we are living day to day… which is getting old… we wanna be in our own home with our kids.
Im really upset and hurt because my family is trying to bring me in the middle of my parents affairs… I have nothing to do with what is going on in my parents life right now. Why they are putting me in the middle is beyond me. If I could I would change the situation but I can not. I cant handle stress well at all and Im trying not to let it all bother me. But its hard not to let it bother you, when you have people who are suppose to care about you doing stupid stuff and trying to make you look like a bad person. Im not a bad person… I think Im a good person and I would never do anything to harm anyone. I tend to put other people ahead of my own feelings and myself. Expecially people that I love. Oh well what ya going to do though? Sponge is doing all he can to keep me safe and comforted. He is doing a wonderful job of it… He makes me sooo very happy. He has made me happier then I ever thought possible. I thought this kind of happiness only existed in fairy tales. We have alot of people who are envious of our relationship. Because we are so good for each other. With us both having the same disease and being so very understanding of each other. Our love and our relationship is just unheard of. I have not seen any relationship and love as strong as ours. I have to say that we are wonderful for each other. I could not ask for a more wonderful man, best friend and partner. He is my all and the reason Im alive. Thank you for everything my love… Thanks for living… thank you for a wonderful family. Thank you for loving me.
I want to thank everyone who reads up on us… you fans do not know what you mean to us. Your the reason we have this website. I hope the writings inspire you the way they have me. That is how I met Sponge is through a red nose. That brought us together… and that website did a world of difference for me. Take care all of you… Take life one frame at a time.
Take care,
Lady Hawk
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06.06.07
Posted in Uncategorized at 2:14 am by Sponge_Daddy
I am blogging from “parts unknown.” To be honest, I know where I am, so do a select few trusted friends. But to protect Jamie, we are keeping her exact location a secret. To make a long story short, her parents are having marital problems. Yesterday they were divorcing, today they are reconciling, tomorrow who knows.
The problem is that they put her in the middle, tearing her up emotionally and making her very ill. Seems that the drama bullshit follows us no matter where we are. Sunday night we were in a hotel in Mayfield, Kentucky enjoying time with our kids and Ally’s friend Tessa. Then the phone calls and the drama bullshit started…happy family time became crappy time.
They have made their pain hers, thus mine.
So I have done as Jamie asked and spirited her somewhere she feels safe. I could go back to our old home and stay, finish things up.
But that is not where I belong. If she needs to be in Timbuktu, I will stay there. If she needs me to “stand guard” over her 24/7 so that she feels safe, I will. Why? Because I love her. She would do the same for me. In fact, she has. I cannot think of anywhere else I want to be. Home is not a building, although we should be moving into our new home soon. Home is the feeling of warmth and safety and love. For Sponge Daddy, home is not the 1700 sq ft cottage we are getting. Home is the 5′ 2″ lady who cares only for me and the kids. Home is my daughter and my son. Soon we will all be under one roof. I would go anywhere for them. They know that, and that security I give to them is something I never had.
For now, I am Jamie’s protector and confidante. In another month it might be the other way around. This is how it should be.
I am home.
Be well,
Sponge
ps, Sami, we miss you too. We talk about you nearly every day. Keep in touch!
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