06.07.07
afloat… torn… and happier then ever…
Sounds crazy I know… to have all those mixed emotions. That is how I feel right now. I know Sponge feels the same way at the moment. As you all know we have alot going on right now with the state dragging their feet on everything. Its all getting quite frustrating for the both of us. We are sitting and waiting for them to get everything straghtened out so that we can move closer to our babies. We both miss our children very much. I just want to get down there and get a job and be mommy. I miss our children very much. Alex is such a wonderful little boy and I can not wait to be down there with him. He loves me very much and I adore that little boy. I want to be there with Ally and just be her friend again. As well as mommy… that little girl means alot to me as well. I love her and feel as if we could be great friends as well as have a great mother daughter relationship. I hope she knows exactly how much she means to me as well. I just try to give her space, because I know what its like to be a teenager Ive been there. I hate feeling stuck and not having a dang thing that I can do about it. All we can do for the most part is sit and wait for the state to get things finished up for us to move in our home. In the meantime we are living day to day… which is getting old… we wanna be in our own home with our kids.
Im really upset and hurt because my family is trying to bring me in the middle of my parents affairs… I have nothing to do with what is going on in my parents life right now. Why they are putting me in the middle is beyond me. If I could I would change the situation but I can not. I cant handle stress well at all and Im trying not to let it all bother me. But its hard not to let it bother you, when you have people who are suppose to care about you doing stupid stuff and trying to make you look like a bad person. Im not a bad person… I think Im a good person and I would never do anything to harm anyone. I tend to put other people ahead of my own feelings and myself. Expecially people that I love. Oh well what ya going to do though? Sponge is doing all he can to keep me safe and comforted. He is doing a wonderful job of it… He makes me sooo very happy. He has made me happier then I ever thought possible. I thought this kind of happiness only existed in fairy tales. We have alot of people who are envious of our relationship. Because we are so good for each other. With us both having the same disease and being so very understanding of each other. Our love and our relationship is just unheard of. I have not seen any relationship and love as strong as ours. I have to say that we are wonderful for each other. I could not ask for a more wonderful man, best friend and partner. He is my all and the reason Im alive. Thank you for everything my love… Thanks for living… thank you for a wonderful family. Thank you for loving me.
I want to thank everyone who reads up on us… you fans do not know what you mean to us. Your the reason we have this website. I hope the writings inspire you the way they have me. That is how I met Sponge is through a red nose. That brought us together… and that website did a world of difference for me. Take care all of you… Take life one frame at a time.
Take care,
Lady Hawk
